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I feel like people never really know the truth about anxiety until they see you in your worst state where you sit and let it all out.
For a person who struggles with anxiety, what is normal?
One pill to get them through the day and to be able to sleep soundly at night.
That little girl you see sitting alone at the lunch table will probably grow up to struggle talking to others because she has fear of putting her self out there. Also known as social anxiety.
Or that other little girl who just can’t seem to cope with the fact that there is dirt on her pants from tripping while walking. She sits in class trying to remove the stain because it has taken all of her attention. Also known as OCD.
And that other girl, who has had a voice in her head since she was seven years old telling her she can not do anything right. What is the truth about her?
Anxiety is controlling and can be life ruining.
But she has not given up.
Why should she give up when every day she has a new battle?
She fights because she knows some days she will win and there is not better glory then winning the battle against anxiety.
Being able to go one day without overthinking or freaking out about something so irrelevant is the best gift in the world.
Having a self conflict is SO hard.
And unless you tell someone how you feel, no one knows.
Despite this self conflict being hard, it doesn’t make us weak, it makes us strong.
Anxiety makes these girls do and say things they do not want to say but have impulses that can not be stopped.
But why apologise for something they can not help?
Instead, they embrace it.
They show the world that even with anxiety and that little voice in their heads, they will succeed.
They have more strength than anyone they know and just because they do not show it, it doesn’t mean it is not there.
That little girl who was afraid to speak up, or could not concentrate because of the stain on her pants will grow up to have so many more issues that will cause her to want to end it all.
But she will not.
She will keep going because anxiety does not beat her.
It pushes her to be greater than she ever even knew she could be.
Take a moment and think about all those people who you judge for getting nervous or overthinking.
Well, they don’t do it because they want to they do it because it is their human nature.
They can’t help it.
Anxiety is more than pretending to be alright, it’s actually becoming alright even though you may never be.
My anxiety is a part of me that I’m not a huge fan of, it has completely changed the direction of many of my plans, it’s frustrating.
But learning to cope with it has taught me that I’m a lot stronger than I thought, that determination is crucial in order to pick yourself up and carry on and that it most certainly does not define me.
Be proud to be that girl with anxiety,
The girl able to face every battle of anxiety and succeed despite the voice of anxiety echoing in your head.
Thanks for reading!